Starting my Food Journal... sort of like Julie and Julia

ok... so today is the last day of this weird 2010... we had ... an earthquake...with all that came with it... tsunami, buildings collapsing, ppl dying, little kids losing moms and dads... a whole country being in the spotlight for something we didnt have control over, construction companies ignoring homeowners and their "issues" with their either new or old house/apartment...lots of aftershocks... the rescue of the miners... a new quake right when the former president was doin all the honors and the new president was takin office(the process is different here in Chile) ... I got to travel to the States =)... lots of changes within myself...still cant quite figure out this life thing...

~sigh~

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BUT I am not here to talk about the weirdest year but to

let you know I will be

gin my Food Journal... or blog... sort of like Julie and Julia movie... but less glamor... less time and money spent achieving it... and i will be guided by at first... by The Madison County Cookbook.

This book came to my hands when I went to a friend's house and saw the book... that was back in 2006 or so... and i lost contact with her... and I sort of kept the book...

Ok... so this is the first of many(I hope) posts... the post will include the name of the Recipe, the picture of the recipe made and a small review of the pie/cake or whatever I'm cooking, i guess I will start by pies and sweet things...

ok... so the first one is..

Coconut Pie, makes its own crust.

The flavor is soft... like the pumpkin pie, and sweet and nice =)

(you're gonna have to excuse myself for the picture, couldn't turn it over)

feelings...

Why do I have the feeling that I'm just settling for a lot less than I deserve.. is this yearning for havin a mate so strong that I would take anything that looks a little like love and caring...?!?!

I've always been a great fan of reading... specially lori wick books... they have something in them that i find appealing... but somehow they leave an empty space... that i long to fill with loving care and the tender touch of a husband... i am not talking about sex... i am talkin about the deep respect and care and the love you feel for that special someone you decided to commit to for the rest of your life and are completely willing to wake up every morning with that person... and knowing that the two of you were meant to be together and that the Lord has put you together for He knew you are to be an important part of the lives of the ones close to you.. family, friends, coworkers, people at the supermarket... to be ...to feel so complete and at peace knowing that what you did is the result of prayer and faith alone... that no man's doing is to be held responsible ... and from now on... only you and the one you chose to be with(the one God had for you) are the reponsibles for bringing up a whole new generation of people that truly and completely love God... with all their might...
gosh... how many times have i wanted to be one of the characters in those novels... i could name them and tell you the whole story.... but i am here.. just babbling about the love i need...the love i yearn... i feel like a pathetic and desperate old woman .. cravin some love...

i dont want to settle for less that i am worthy... i mean... i was bought by the blood of Christ... I am a princess... so shouldn't I just wait for my prince charming... but then.. i look around... and see nobody worthy of my love(not meant to sound cocky just that i see nobody that fits in the role...)... i see so many people that dont know a single thing about love... tenderness and how to cherish a woman... gosh... i am so random that i dont even know what I'm writing...
one thing I know for sure... I love LOVE... i want to be IN love... I want a husband... someone to tell me i look beautiful in the morning when I certainly dont... someone that will watch me sleep and then tell me i look precious.... someone who can hug me and tell me I'm the most beautiful girl in the world.... but then I look at myself .. and i see some rag.... some sweet girl wannabe... and that can absolutely bring me down... books are a hiding place.... when i dont have a place to go...and find a reality that I wish was mine... but oh well...

*sigh*

i had those thoughts and i had to get them out...

it very much feels like I've settled for less

back to blog life?!

oh well.. tis been a VERY long time.... here i am... playing sudoku and listenin to ateens haha lame i know.. but oh well... i dont know what got into my writing again... maybe the fact that my best friend got a blog also?

you just never know.... things are goin quite numb for me... nothing new...only I've been watching a lot of romantic movies...
The Notebook.. like THE best romantic movie ever....(so far) I loved it... COMPLETELY loved it... cried like a girl... like i was really inside the movie... felt the sadness of the silent witness... and when I told my mom about the movie... I cried harder...

ok.. i guess I will leave for now...and just like many of us think... this is only a reminder of things past... never thinkin ppl will actually see this

a kis and a hug

me...

this weekend

I went to Katie's house after work... we went to the movies... I had already seen the movie, but it didnt matter...

my Katie is back... at least for a few days and I can finally say goodbye to hr the way I wanted... for I will see her no more... she will go back to california to her life...
and I will stay here missin her a lot... but heck I do have to move on and start acting like an adult...
anyone out there know how to do that... pls let me know...

tis just hittin me...

I A M A G R O W N U P




how do u do this...

kisses and hugs

last day...

I went out with my best friend julio, after church we went to the mall for lunch and shoe shopping.. couldnt buy anything...
I just dont like the kind I saw.. almost get crocs©, but they were a lil expensive... but what the heck.. I'm gonna get those purple ones.. and also my starbucks mug... i want it so bad... we took a bunch of pics... and we enjoyed our talks, walks and laughs...
new year... I hope I can change my attitude in 2008...

love ♥

starbucks...

I went to starbucks with pablo... a friend...
previously we had gone to the movies and just bfore that we went for ice cream, I had a nice evening... that was the best solution for the longest morning in the bank.. 4 hours... waiting for my money... grrrr
anyways... thats over now and was totally forgotten with movies and starbucks...

After Christmas...

I must tell you this is very very boring... no kids around... no presents...
dang... I feel like scrooge himself...

this Christmas was lame... I didnt go to church to see the play... first time in like 7 years that I miss a play... but I'm not really going to church...

bitterness... heck... i guess so... and I guess Im being used... by the evil one... and Im not doing anything to stop it.. I could... but I dont know what stops me... laziness could be one good reason... I keep on telling other ppl that I know what needs to be done... and tis not like I feel like a worm... bfore the Lord... I just dont want to... tis like some duty u know you need to do... but dont feel like it.. never had i felt this before, this laziness when the Lord was involved... like I know Im lazy in many different areas in my life... but... maybe.. I dont know... maybe I'm not saved...u know I've been wondering that for a long time... prayer... havent done that in like 5-6 months... like real prayer...

and I miss the old Wen... the one who attended church... the one who didnt miss youth group, the one who was a judge to every brother or sister who missed sunday school or youth group.. dang I never thought it would happen to me... so be away from church... and from God... Im so scared... I dont know what to do... like yes pray... prayer... to pray...to talk to the Lord.. Creator of heaven and earth... to spend time with him.. to listen to what he has to say... to read His Word... to talk to my Heavenly Father...

I need to find myself... I need .. first of all... to have the desire to be found...

love ya